We’re Just As Insecure About Life As Everyone Else
Don’t Think Twice, It’s Alright
Ivan here. We experienced a spike in readership lately. For most sites, this is a 100% positive development, but for someone like me who can’t look a gift horse in the mouth, this only raises new, troubling questions.
For starters, how authentic is this blog? By that I mean, how much of what we write are things we actually believe and how much of it is image crafting? Do we try to appear more confident or certain than we really are? At what point does our “honesty” become a heightened form of pretend?
The last thing I want to do is pander to an audience. Or as Kurt Vonnegut puts it, “to open the window and try to make love to the world.” But then again, isn’t the opposite of this just lonely masturbation?
Life can be confusing sometimes.
My point is: even as Jennie and I decide to leave everything behind by September 2018 and build a life together around the world, we’re often plagued by the same doubts and insecurities like everyone else.
Here’s a non-exhaustive list:
7 Insecurities We Have At The Origami Life
1. Are we being too naive?
It’s the classic case of not knowing what we don’t know. Jennie and I are 28 years old, which means at best we have 6 to 8 years of experience living in “the real world.” Not a great sample size.
2. Are we cutting through the noise or creating more of it?
The world certainly doesn’t have a shortage of millennials starting blogs. If we’re not coming at it from a fresh perspective, is there a point in doing it at all?
3. Are we the typical case?
Two millennials quitting their jobs to travel the world. How original. Is this just a phase we’re going through? A quarter life crisis?
4. Do we know ourselves as well as we think we do?
We seem pretty sure about what we can and can’t live with, so much so we’re ready to drop everything and embrace maximum uncertainty. Will 35-year-old me look back at the things 28-year-old me aspired to be and think “geez, what an asshole”?
5. Are we romanticizing life abroad?
“Isn’t it pretty to think so?”
-Ernest Hemingway, The Sun Also Rises
Sometimes we fall into the trap of thinking something is true just because it sounds good. Is that what we’ve been doing all along?
6. How can stable lives be overrated when we were the products of stable lives?
By stable I mean a job, mortgage, savings, and kids. I’m using my parents’ argument here, and I must admit they’ve got a point.
7. How much control do we really have on our lives?
While we like to think we decide our own destinies, there’s ample evidence to suggest that people don’t change events, events change them.
Why We Keep Going ANyway
Jennie and I have a hypothesis on what life can be. It’s a hypothesis which rests on the assumption that we live in a society with a lot of baggage full of stale ideas, routines, and opinions. For us, staying put means having to constantly stave off the emptiness of living on somebody else’s terms.
Leaving, on the other hand, is a blank sheet of paper, full of uncertainty and the opportunities that come with it. Here’s a life we might create from scratch, one fold at a time. One where we can focus on things that actually matter, and in doing so, we make sense of the world and our place in it.
The Origami Life isn’t for everyone. Page views and audience numbers don’t interest us very much. What we’re looking for is our people. Those who’ve experienced similar things or see the world in similar ways. An audience we can look out at and say, "maybe we’re not so crazy after all."
And that's worth more to us than anything in the world.
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